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25 October 2011 @ 11:32 pm
I've accumulated friends and a life to keep me busy. I work at a job I hate, but like most everyone. I love my core group and we see each other at least once a week like a normal group of people.
I drink far too much. After two or so drinks I become deppressed so I drink more to feel nothing. No inhibitions and no pain. No soul. I wish I could be that way always.
I've given away parts of myself to those undeserving, and refused ones who were. I'm a masochist when it comes to romance. I'm still holding on to those who broke my heart and let them string me along.
I can be very quiet. I'm strong enough to know I'm not much and I no longer take massive amount of weird combination of pills and go to sleep hoping I won't wake up. All though I do think about doing it often. I keep myself busy. So busy. So busy that I get sick and lie in bed and think about the fore mentioned activity.
I'm fucked up.
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: Robots - Dan Mangan
22 September 2008 @ 11:51 pm
Comment To Be Added.....<3
Current Mood: crappycrappy
16 September 2008 @ 10:24 pm
So I just had a very emotionaly charged weekend...hello...
But anyways...
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Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
10 September 2008 @ 10:18 pm
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Current Mood: amusedamused
10 September 2008 @ 06:06 pm
"..in the end what leaves you broken...makes you better"

just a thought...
Current Mood: melancholymelancholy
09 September 2008 @ 12:16 pm
I have ADD and my brother has ADHD...
We both use to take Riddlen when we were younger but I found t had absolutly no affect on me .....
I just had alot of trouble focusing on school..
02 September 2008 @ 11:48 pm
I got a fish...Stella

and I called the store back and now have a interveiw tommorow...
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Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: We Used To Be Friends - The Dandy Warhols
28 August 2008 @ 07:50 pm
I watched this and laughed so hard....
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Current Mood: amusedamused
27 August 2008 @ 02:37 pm
I don't think I have insomnia..but I have something....I can't sleep at night...sigh..
Current Mood: restlessrestless
Current Music: I Could Say - Lily Allen
25 August 2008 @ 09:06 pm
My anti-social neighbors of ten years have suddenly taken interest in us. I am sad to say however it is not a positive interest.
At the begining of the summer I noticed that Mrs.F would watch me as I walked up the road...okay whatever kinda creepy..but whatever...Then she commented on the bulldoser my dad keeps in the side yard..(she doesn't like looking at it....) my dad responded to this by buying a dumptruck and parking it in front of the offensive bulldoser...
Then tonight e overheard them remarking on how many vans we have in the driveway...( Van 1 belongs to us and has for the past 5 years, Van 2 belongs to my grandparents who are visiting us for the week, Van 3 belongs to our cousin who recently moved up here and comes to our house once a week with her kids to do laundry becasue they are currently building their house)....but seriously...vans?
How many vans is to many vans? Is this popular vechicle so offensive?
Current Location: The House of many Vans
Current Mood: amusedamused